showing off shades and rooooom

i will never love you more than the white album of the beatles I will never love you more than DVD night with my girlfriends when we talk about stupid thing like feelings and men

so soon to be with them

What to Wear

yes i do believe you look good my dear

with red raybans the loves of my life



A wool Coat





And finally a wish for:

The Thanksgiving Feast now onto the Roast Beast!





I want this
pretty clothes

The young composer, working that summer at an artist’s colony, had watched her for a week. She was Japanese, a painter, almost sixty, and he thought he was in love with her. He loved her work, and her work was like the way she moved her body, used her hands, looked at him directly when she mused and considered answers to his questions. One night, walking back from a concert, they came to her door and she turned to him and said, “I think you would like to have me. I would like that too, but I must tell you that I have had a double mastectomy,” and when he didn’t understand, “I’ve lost both my breasts.” The radiance that he had carried around in his belly and chest cavity-like music-withered quickly, and he made himself look at her when he said, “I’m sorry I don’t think I could.” He walked back to his own cabin through the pines, and in the morning he found a small blue bowl on the porch outside his door. It looked to be full of rose petals, but he found when he picked it up that the rose petals were on top; the rest of the bowl-she must have swept the corners of her studio-was full of dead bees.

-Robert Haas

mi amores espanoles

cuando yo estudio en Espana en el proximo ano yo espero que conozque un hombre tan guapo como Fernando Torres y Gael

Betsey Johnson holiday socks kicking off the season of seasons

i am geisha

can't remember how to play hanafuda
it is hard forgetting and forgetting
and no longer knowing how to play any instrument that i could have maybe known
oh yes it is so tiring here

she is so lovely.

eeeeeeeee! my love! i want babies sho cute as this! can i just be her?

just back from a fun couple nights in SD
and got into a minor car accident on the way to desert hot springs
now im stuck doing laundry in Anderson...no bueno no bueno

Not Doing So Hot

Chemistry is a droning foreign language at this point
sitting in class with a bunch of kids who think they're really cool because they know all the answer to chemistry equations makes my stomach feel like rolling over and giving them a sock in jugular
but instead i have to pretend like i know what's going on and try to read and catch up with the rest of the class

then there is the whole deal of walking around with the strange injured knee i received from walking the other day...not being able to work out or walk comfortably up and down stairs and feeling like a complaining baby whenever i limp...

and then having to catch up with all the reading

and then there is the whole idea of going to a Hawaii club meeting and being the only one there who isn't friends with at least one other person so i have to sit by myself and send text messages to friends too far away

Thursday

After a real rough week
and an even rougher weekend
it was nice to wake up to a late thursday morning, eat breakfast...and a little extra
then dilly dally a while before my one and only 100 class
surprisingly the three hours went by like nothing and i was actually interested in what the class was talking about
now it's either gym or drink run time
and hopefully tonight will oh so much fun ;)
i wish every day could be thursday

some day i will feel like this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bl6FbeoXeHQ

Rough Morning

hard times last night to worse times this morning
i feel like a complete idiot in my Chem class since the last chemistry course i took was over the summer of sophmore year and everyone else knows what's going on and i have no idea how to even begin to answer the questions. The kids are really irritating and i just want to make everyone else in that class go away so that i can learn in peace!

I am heading up to the desert today...
after the two hour drive im gonna make some crepe batter and then probably swim in the pool or watch some of the excellent cable that will only be at my disposal for one more day.

yesterday i was soooo happy :) and proud that i drove all the way to USD from mission beach all by meself!
yup and i picked up my girls aunty kathy and whitty cent and aunties new roomie meghan who's a cool gal from NY
after aunty and meghan stwuggled with their broke fridge down their dorm steps and loaded it into my MASSIVE truck (F250)
we drove to Target and dropped it off
after that we went shopping at mission valley before heading to get some grindable sushi from Mizu Japanese cuisine and sushi
so grindz me and aunty kathy and whitty split three gigantic plates of sushi no probs

meghan was still to wary to try the raw fish

after that we said a quick hello to the gma before heading to the beach to watch the sunset





i had to say goodbye to my friends then but hopefully ill be back the last weekend in sept. and we can party!

so on the second to last night of my hawaii life i ventured to simone's abode for the last party and basically first party that i would go to this summer. needless to say i was a complete hot mess and made a complete fool of myself although certain friends of mine did work and we are all proud of that said friend ahem



any way after that i woke up happily with a headache and nausea to go running around diamond head followed by a nice walk around the same mountain with simone and shannon. afterwards we grinded on acai bowls from da health bar and that was that

i went to elizabeth's going away party thrown by her mother and father and got to play with her goat and puppies :)



after that there was only the flight away from home :( and the feeling that i hadn't used this summer to my full advantage

today i went shopping with the gma and then we grinded olive garden and i got to hang with my baby cousins! are they the cutest boys ever?! i think soooo!!!!

check out how cute their room is!

the last weekend

the last weekend has arrived
awake and sitting by the downstairs window once again with a cup of coffee
almost ready to get to the ocean and surf baby waves for the last time
*ends up there were no waves and my muther got into a verbal confrontation with a moke...typical
then heading to simone's for a fantastic pool day!




mango salsa! mmmmm

and then picking up the kiddies for a fun baby sitting sesh

where we will
make pizza faces


here's my pizza face :)


and smores
and watch wee sing videos

and then a little time for sleep
before

waking up and decorating cereal bowls and hats
and then heading to the beach for a day of building sand cars, scavenger hunting, and lots and lots of sun!

today is going to be a good day :)

the start of the finish

i am sitting by my window downstairs with coffee and bob dylan
after work today i shall be making crepes with Shannon :) mmmmm im glad to be re-taught how to make the delicious treats so that next year when i go to stay down in SD i can make them for breakfast

tomorrow is work and then walking diamond head with brookie before heading to this side of the island for a farewell dinner kathy and brooke :(
yup the two leave on friday

Friday is work and then a pool day with my simoner boner

saturday babysitting! followed by the PEPPER concert. oh so stoked! can't wait for it all

next wednesday is a lot closer than it seems eeeeeek!

so its been a while because on saturday night i came down with the flu and was bed ridden and miserable!
but before that

karaoke for amanda's last night
we got bus and sang our hearts out
and with the helpful instructors (Annie and Amanda) head butted our way through toxicity by system of a down

we followed this exciting and tone deft outing with some nice bonding at shaun's apartment where me and aunty kathy shared a chocolate cookie which was divine but had to be followed with me and haven going to star market and me buying a pack of pita bread and a container of humus and devouring the entirety of the humus and all but one pocket of pita yeeeeee!

the next morning i was delighted to wake up super early haha
and go to see the two twins Brycen and Brayden who's mom worked with my mom and who had attended the preschool a year earlier play baseball. I couldn't get enough of how tiny all the kids looked and how awsome it was to play baseball with almost no rules. of course their mom was ringleader of all the chearers and as soon as she arrived the noise level increased by 100. it makes me wonder what i looked like when i played baseball at their age :)

then the muther and i went for a nice surf sesh on baby waves at barbers point kalaeloa

and home for a quick nap before waking up
showering
and attending my cousins going away party

i felt fine the entire night and bonded with my mom and my aunties and it wasn't till we were helping to clean up when the aches started. hoping it was nothing, i casually mentioned it to my mom, but after entering the front door to my house and taking my temperature i knew that the truth was unavoidable. flu flu flu :(

ughhhhhhhh missing two days of work and being cooped in a bed for three i felt like i could just die! especially with no internet service, but voila! i am finally flu free though still have a bit of a cough and stuffed nose but still looking forward to

1. work followed by crepe making and a viewing of the time travelers wife
2. surfing with mama then spending the day at the beach with my friends (mikayla's last day :( )
3. North Shore!



PS. i have been trying most ardently to get a hold of this watch please help if you can. let me know if you see it for sale anywhere!

today at work i was once again the designated watermelon slicer. I enjoyed cutting the ice cold watermelon and snacking on the pieces that "weren't big enough for the kiddies"






me hard at work :)


one of the kiddies left to go to kindergarten and he brought us these adorable cupcakes
we'll miss him :(


after a quick run me and brooke walked around diamond head
we got to talk and catch up and talk about all the ridiculous people and things in this world
i gotta say brooke's one of the best for talks like that :)

At home watching Ace of Cakes hehe
ready to fall asleep and dream about friday just around the corner

what a fun couple of days

after work yesterday i drove to Amanda's house *so happy that the crazy girl is back :) it feels like she never left
and we all went to 7/11 (by Punahou aka our old stomping ground when we thought we were cool leaving campus and walking, since we could not yet drive, to the 7/11 down the street...also the place we decided to buy chicken curry manapua before tahitian tryouts and ended up throwing up :))
we bought snacks and drinks and then headed to the Shell to park so that we could split into teams for the grand scavenger hunt that Keely and Brookie aka the sicky babies and i made up a day or two before.

Keely made onolicious brownies that we ate even though they were sticking to the sides...im pretty sure mikayla got to them first but then again that could just be an educated guess ;p any way, they were delicious keely thanks!

after that we started the scavenger hunt running around waikiki doing classy things like

playing the penis game in an elevator
running through the streets yelling "it's not herpes if it's everywhere"
street performing
asking to try five flavors at an ice cream shop
asking for various murderous items like a steak knife, duct tape, trash bags ect. from an ABC store

we were glad that this was for Brookies 20th birthday and not her 14th

after staring at some children playing in the sand wondering how inappropriate it would be to ask if we could bury them (an item on the scavenger hunt list) and deciding that the approaching father might not approve, my team sat and waited for the others



we followed this wonderful late afternoon activity with a dinner at zippy's
on the way brooke was asked if she was a princess since she had a delicious smelling lei and a crown. I love kids for still believing that princesses can just walk through waikiki




zippy's was not zippy as usual but it WAS ono with portuguese bean soup and a boca burger

we all chipped in to help brooke buy her new phone! happy birthday girl i look forward to Sunday's celebration

today at work i blew up water balloons and made sure my mom kept the twins birthday cupcakes so that i could have one when i finished blowing up the balloons :)
i have been feeling extra tired at work and realized that it was because i haven't been excersizing so i made sure to run diamond head before rushing to the outrigger to say goodbye to keely :(

then i went home and baked red velvet cupcakes with cream cheese frosting for my aunty barb's birthday on saturday. i can't get enough of the deliciousness of cupcakes! i also had a few spoonfuls of nutella and feel like a sugar child but hey this is all i will have till christmas soooooo ill eat as many cupcakes as i can :)

cupcakes

more cupcakes
magnolia bakery vanilla frosting mmmm
scratch cupcakes are always the best

Germany

So just got back from the most amazing trip :)

After flying into New York City Shannon and i were jet lagged and needed at least four cups of coffee to keep us on our feet as we waited for our hotel room to be ready. Thinking we would be staying in a normal room we couldn't wait to just get inside and fall to sleep after our 12 hour flight.
Shannon's friend showed up and our room was ready. After checking in at the Executive desk *should have been a sign, we headed up to our room on the 43rd floor of the Hilton where a suit and chocolate covered strawberries awaited us. Let's just say Ali is the best!
a quick nap and we strode down to Serendipities where there was an hour and a half wait. After putting our names down we decide to go and see 500 days of summer, a movie that is absolutely fabulous and right up my alley.
showing back up at serendipities about twenty minutes late i was sure that our reservation would be cancelled, but incredibly luckily the host got us the top table right next to the window and we ate delicious food in possibly the cutest restaurant.
sadly i did not get to buy the darling cupcake necklace i had been eyeing downstairs because of the crowd.

the next day we awoke to walk the city and then we had to cater to my cupcake desires and went to buy me a cupcake when all of a sudden shannon stops and points and there, just five feet away from us stood the absolutely gorgeous Rachel McAdams. She was filming in a beautiful bage dress and i can't wait to see whatever movie it was
we then stopped and got a red velvet cupcake with the most delicious cream cheese frosting that any of us had ever consumed.

Germany:
Berlin was the most beautiful city in the world. Every thing was nice neutral or soft colors and there were flowers in the windows and cobble stone roads that were easy to walk upon.

The first day we arrived we waited for Michael to arrive and after twenty minutes of waiting got a weird feeling. Checking the email he had sent we realized that the dates had gotten mixed up and he wouldn't be arriving until the next day! We asked for a room in the hostel that night and the man said that there were no rooms open.
Afraid and stranded in a foreign country shannon and i were frightened but the man at the hostel called around and found us two rooms up the road.
We failed at ordering coffee and treats that afternoon and that evening found a nice Organic food store called Biomarkt. The amazing thing about Germany is that organic food is supported by the government and so is cheap and delicious. We ate a meal of bread and cheese and bananas and apples and pretzles. it was divine.

After michael showed up things got a lot easier and we walked the city from top to bottom. We must have walked at least 7 miles a day exploring all the corners of the city. It was beautiful and every one dressed in classy neutral colored clothing with stylish athletic shoes and rode bikes around the city.

I think my favorite part of the trip was the picnic we had in the Berlin park. It is the most beautiful park ever to be found. There are wild trees and big open spaces where one can ride their bike or jog or just walk and then sit and read or picnic or just relax. We walked through the park the first day and a few days later we raced our bicycles through the open field, picnicked and made daisy chains to wear around our necks. It was a wonderful day.

there is too much more but all in all i am so glad to have gone on the trip

A perfect day
surfing little baby waves (all i can manage) with mom rachel and cliffster
acai bowl with chocolate protein powder
tidepools
delicious grilled burgers for dinner at my house BOCA
and then hopefully dancing or watching movies

July 10th

It was watermelon day at work and i was chosen to be designated watermelon slicer :)
hehe perfect job for me since i got to grind ono ice cold watermelon as well as play with the kiddies
some of them ate more than i could (and more than all the other teachers)
after work i went for a nice jog around Kaneohe shopping center and then took a much needed and very refreshing shower
hoping to catch the 7 30 showing of Bruno with friends!

Annie's Birthday

After a really hard day at work
it was nice to go out to eat for Annie's birthday. Annie is possible the sweetest and best girl in the world. i was sad that i was so exhausted that i had trouble staying awake but it was worth it to see the birthday girl. She tried paying for the whole meal but of course we would have none of that! A dinner of $21 at the macaroni grill should not be payed for by one person.
Julia sent a picture of herself so that she could be with Annie on her birthday...typical haha As you can see i was confused at how Julia got all the way to Hawaii from Utah


After we ate we all took a group shot. it was nice to see many of the class of '08 together :)


Happy Birthday to Annie girl
we are lucky to know you!

Monday Madness

Yesterday Cienna and I went to Tahitian. please keep in mind that we have not been in ages but any way at the end of class i started feeling sick so i knew i had to book it to the drinking fountain and bathroom.
the feeling that i was feeling was a black out nausea that i have experienced a few times before

anyway on the way out a woman in a kimono stopped me to ask what time the class ended and i was in so much agony that i didn't understand at first and mumbled something inaudible.

after gulping down water from the drinking fountain as much as i could through nauseation and blackouts i finally knew that i was going to throw up so i raced to the bathroom as fast as i could. fumbling with the keys because my sight was going in and out and because there were three keys on the chain i was unable to find the right key and was about to fall to the ground when a nicely dressed woman walked up and asked if i needed her to let me in.

I tried to explain that i wasn't just a fumbling idiot and that i was having trouble because of the three keys and she said it was no problem and let me into the bathroom. Trying to make it look like i was in a desperate dash for the toilet (even though i was) i made into one of the stalls and immediately threw up.

The poor woman who had let me in must have been horrified.

Long story short cienna found me on the floor of the lobby crumpled into a ball.

Once I was feeling better and cienna had driven me home...almost like a designated driver
i was ready to be with friends again so we all headed out to a house where there was fun friends and plenty of games!
once again a beautiful day

I have cousins

i may have forgotten to mention that i have two new baby cousins
Callaghan and Mack two cute twin boys
here is my uncles new paddle board featuring them

July 4th

Just got back from spending the night on the north shore with the best group of prehty aunties in the whole world.
Following a run around Kaneohe I baked cupcakes and star spam musubi




Kathy packed us a cooler full of treats as well and cienna brought triscuits and brooke had a wonderful watermelon
We sat and talked story and it was super fun to just sit and play with the dog.
For dinner we ate Teri Burgers *Rachel gave told us once again that the nicest thing anyone has ever done for our friends is Shaun asking aunty kathy to prom on a teri burger. it was very cute but maybe not the nicest...
We roasted marshmellows and made my favorite smores. I also got burned by flying embers...fun. and satan's chariot the giant bird was flying around us just like last year, but i he kept a safe distance this time around.

We went to sleep in our giant tent.
i of course woke up at 2 in the morning having to pee. Rachel Halevi rolled on both me and mikayla and Katherine spoke sweet words of "hell yeah i'd hook up with him" in her sleep.

waking up we ate ONO banana pancakes with lilikoi buttah and sausages and watermelon and papaya before heading to Waimea where there were dolphins jumping and turtles and freaky fish that flew over us. We had floaties and rachel and Jessica proceeded to have a treading contast. Rachel says she just floats...they then challenged each other to a race...well actually were prompted by me and Annie and the last thing that was heard was Rachel with

"Frick you I'm better than you!."

yup it happened.

after driving to cienna's house we watched House Bunny
all in all a very good 4th

late.

wannadiscowannaseemedisco

Finally final one done
May term is straight ahead
ready for some straight cruising.
San Diego is even sooner